This is hard.

I started this challenge in May. It's now July. I've GAINED 3 lbs.

Yes, that's right. I am holding steady at 217, which is the highest I've been in a while. WTF?

The last two days, I've made a serious recommitment to the Paul McKenna program. And I broke the rules last night after eating nothing but a pretzel all day and then hoovering a steak & cheese sandwich with fries. Sigh. Despite that, I've been great all day long today. I just need to keep it up.

"Keeping it up" seems to be the problem. I don't know whether I just feel this is impossible, or whether I just get distracted, or if I'm just stress eating and busy. I think it's a combination of all of that.

I lost almost 50 lbs. I should be able to do it again. It shouldn't be this hard. But it is.