Two days, 2 pounds gone!

I'm gonna start by telling you what I ate yesterday.

Some coffee
1/3 of a chicken, bacon, tomato, avocado quesadilla
A diet coke
Water
An iced cappuccino
A packet of peanut butter crackers
1/2 a bologna sandwich
2 lindt truffles

I paid attention to my levels of hunger yesterday. I ate slow. I stopped when I thought I may have had all the food I needed to not be hungry anymore. I did not fret over what type of food I was eating. I ate what I wanted and listened to my body. And I lost 2 pounds.

Maybe one of the reasons I've been failing up till now is because I'm stuck in this frame of mind like... I need to lose weight, thus I need to be eating veggies and salads and smoothies and doing all this "special stuff"... and if I can't eat that stuff, I'm being "bad" so I'll just overdo it anyway. It's kind of ridiculous, because dieting is exactly what gave me my issues with food to begin with!! Not to mention... that's not how I lost my first 50 pounds... why should I feel like that's how I have to lose my next 50!?

There's nothing wrong with drinking a smoothie, or eating some fruit, or being careful about how much sugar I have. But that's not the answer. The answer is getting back the mentality that food is fuel, and I don't NEED to have a certain amount every time I eat. Just like my car always needs different amounts of gas. I shouldn't be waiting till I am on empty, nor should I be putting 8 gallons in when my tank only has room for 3.

I need to be reminding myself not to decide how much I am going to eat before I start eating. I need to ask myself "Why does that wrap have to have chips with it? What if just half the wrap is plenty? You can buy some chips after the fact if you still really feel hungry. They'll still be there." I've gotta convince myself again and get back the knowledge that I'm probably not still going to be starving after I eat a little something and therefor, there is no reason to put a ton on my plate because if I want it later, I can have it then.

Onward...